Conversations with Mom

I went out of town to spend the weekend with my family to celebrate Christmas early. We do that because my better half is not welcome and I want to spend Christmas with her. Most of the weekend was good and I enjoyed my family. But it seems like there is always something that occurs that reminds me that I am a disappointment. I was with my family for 3 days. The following is a paraphrase of conversations with my mom while I was there.


Day One.

Have you thought about getting in touch with Pastor ____ and his wife.
No.
I wish that you would. They would love to see you.
I'd rather keep up with them from a distance.
People can change. They've been through a lot in the past year.
I know.
Would you think about getting in touch with them?
No.
Why not?
Because I will not put myself in a position to get beat up again.
People can change. You can change.
I don't need to change. I am who I am.
Yeah, you do.
I'm okay with who I am. God is okay with who I am.
You know what the Bible says.
We don't need to talk about this because we will not agree.
The Bible....
Can say whatever a person wants it to say. It can be used to justify anything.
You are deceived.

Day Two.

I remember when you were in high school and a co-worker told me that they wished their daughter was more like you and interested in helping other people. I bet she wouldn't say that now.
Thanks, mom.
(Cheerfully) You're welcome.
It must really suck.
It does suck.